Saturday, April 08, 2006

Running Away

I was thinking about some situations in my past and how I handled them. When things got really tough I could make changes but sometimes I just "ran away" and avoided the issues. I understand why I did that but also know that it didn't help in the short term except numb the pain. Avoidance can be as bad as taking drugs or alcohol.

It is hard to run away when...

you are single...

and you live alone.

We may be able to "fix" situations we have control of. This isn't always advisable. We can't change others nor do we have that right. We can adapt to them - within reason.

You can't run away from yourself.

In the end running away from something brings you back to yourself and the unanswered questions.

I don't run away now. I work at things in stages and negotiate with others and myself. I still feel that urge sometimes and know it is an "option".

Running away usually brings feelings of guilt and regret. Facing the issue may bring pain and disappointment, but it also leads to either progress or closure.

1 comment:

LJ said...

This entry brings to mind how I've lived most of my life. It is also something I was giving a lot of thought to last month while I was trying to figure out what to do. The frightened part of me wanted to run away, and refuse to accept my part of the problem (with my job). The more mature part of me realized that running away wasn't going to solve anything, and IF it was my time to leave my job then I wanted to leave well.
Running away from life plays no favourites to people with partners or without. There is no additional security or promises when one is in relationship.